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I actually have these days when I am surrounded by so much love and joy and happiness that I can’t help but fall asleep after Praising God for his work and Thanking him that he’s given me a little taste of eternity.
If singing 90s songs, with classics like the Backstreet boys and just plain old…
The way of all flesh
Do not be afraid; you are dying
And the four great walls of your body
Are collapsing one into the other
It is as if you are being crushed by mountains
The light of this world has disappeared but the light of the next has not yet appeared
Source: memoirsoftheforgottenyouth
You know what there are days when i really enjoy my job. I can do it with a smile on my face no matter how shitty some patients and nurses get or who is on the board sending me fuck knows where. And then their are days when i think to myself why the fuck i am here. This person doesnt give a fuck that yeah its 10 o clock and i should be at home or in this case out with my mates. no, apparently i sit on my arse and deliberately make these people wait just for some perverse enjoyment. Here’s how it goes and really for other people too. Sure i’ll bitch and have a gripe but i get the fuck over it coz yeah life deals you shit.
If you don’t like your life then fucking change it. No one forces you to get your blood cleaned every few days. Sick of a free service? pay for a one that will be on time. Sick of the hand that life deals you? then leave the table. I manage to get up in the morning and be mostly cheerful about it even though i’m not touring the world and storming arena’s. Its what i want to do but i know that takes time. But i work towards it coz its something i want. Don’t sit there and bitch about life when you could make a difference about it. You ALWAYS have the choice to change shit.
Push
Push me
Push
Push me
outbreak of me, free of purgatory
you trapped me under your spell
corrupt and sinister
you pushed and you pulled
til you pushed me away
sickening and deceitful but you love it
And i can’t wait for you to choke on it
when you see that smile on my face
i hope you curl up inside, vomit up your lies
i hope you die inside, when you see me smile
Free from my hell, 9 levels down and only one way out
you pushed me under, and a smiling devil sends me up
look at me in the eye until you flinch
you can see the fire in my eyes right before you turn to stone
righteous and contempt, free and exempt
ill judge you right back, bring you to your knees
i wont kill you, only so you can feel the pain you gave me
You don’t show it but I know you’re hurting
Your face smiles but it never reaches your eyes
I know you’re in pain and I know it sucks
You’ve been through too much but you’ll never let me see it, you wont let anyone see it
It’s eating up at me, and it’s driving through me
My heart bleeds, maybe you should see it too know that i feel just like you
Let me take some of the pain from
The fall
I’d trade it all to see you happy
To see you happy with yourself
To be the person I remember
Id trade it all to see you smile
You know that moment when there is just nothing to say anymore about a person you care about? That moment when justification ends and you don’t know what to say anymore. or what to do..yeah. That sucks.
Anger its bliss what you give me
This ability to see and destroy
What I am and what I need to be
And that’s not you, my memory
That’s just not you
Seeing this in a field of burning red
Flames from my heart they reach up
To burn you, this is my wrath you will feel
Unjustified, so much pain and I wanna make
You feel it all, so much hate you’re gonna take it all
So much rage I wanna see you in pain, writhe bitch
WRITHE
This is a disgrace to my soul, I shouldn’t allow this
Im feeding this demon who hides inside me
It see’s your face and inside I die, coz he comes alive
Little bits in two and they’re all around me
Im not gonna count them coz I know you’re not inside me
Ive waited so long, you don’t know how long
This demon has waited so long, he snarls in relief
He burns the bridges that I wanted to destroy
To get away from you but I just couldn’t but its done
This memory of you is fading away just like the flames
This is not forgiveness, this a moment to forget
Unjustified, so much pain and I wanna make
You feel it all, so much hate you’re gonna take it all
So much rage I wanna see you in pain, writhe bitch
WRITHE
I will never forgive
The only way I will forget will be your blood on my hands
The only way through this is to bury your memory with
My two hands
I wanna see you dripping in my tears, I wanna see my
Hate buried with you 6 feet up on a pedestal
Surrounded by people who know you for what you are
DEAD
Sometimes you look at yourself in the mirror and when you do, you look away straight away because you know behind those eyes is a monster lurking just waiting to come out. He’s there and he knows it because you’ve felt it, been influenced by it…but its not really a monster. its just another part of yourself…a place where you put your dark past, dark thoughts and painful memories. its all of that combined and more. and it rears its head and reminds you of what you did, and reopens those festering wounds and lets you bleed a little more in the inside without letting anyone see. Because its my burden to feel and that pain to be punished by. no one else is doing this to myself but me, my own conscience which never for a second lets me forget what i did and how much it hurt. its a gut ripping feeling when it happens and i would almost rather hot fucking pokers driven into my eyes than feel it sometimes but we don’t always get our way. and that would hurt alot. its a constant reminder yet i force myself to go through it…i just wonder how long i will be forced to before i forgive myself for what i did. and isnt that just fucked up.
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The only movie company that makes bloopers for animated movies
i love these movies lol
Source: ktsalvatore
I’d love to burn these memories away
So many scars here, its just to much
i have to get away
A mirror in my head, circles me in
the mind
This confusion can’t go on its blinding me
I’m running in circles its killing me
And I’m stuck here, island me
i can’t wait for it to collapse around me
Every haunting memory, every alley i turn down
it has a twisting blade, another tragedy i hide away
an endless nightmare, it knows no bounds, infinite awaits
Rat in a cage, they’ll find me buried in here
trapped with no way out, can you feel it
you can’t get out, break out inside feel
all thats alive, scream with me til you feel it
BREAK INSIDE!
Every haunting memory, every alley i turn down
it has a twisting blade, another tragedy i hide away
an endless nightmare, it knows no bounds, infinite awaits
infinite
infinite awaits
Break!
Break!
break everything you are, tear apart the glass
these mirrors and walls they hide who you really are
its all a fake, its all a lie break free with me
break out and never look back
Don’t look back
I can see in your mind, your just like me
A freak with no one else that see’s
break everything you are, tear apart the glass
these mirrors and walls they hide who you really are
its all a fake, its all a lie break free with me
break out and never look back
Don’t look ever back
Break, Break,Break, Break, BREAK
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